I don't know why its so hard to say "I'm sorry." It shouldn't be hard to say, after all none of us would be arrogant enough to say, I'm perfect. Therefore, if we know we aren't perfect it stands to reason that we know we will make mistakes. If we know we will make mistakes, then we should just know we are going to have to say sorry.
Sorry for the ramble!
The other night I was cranky with the Hubbo. So cranky he said "forget this" and went and hung out in our room, away from the TV, a big thing for him. Can I tell you I just sat in a chair fighting what I knew I should do, apologize.
I tried to rationalize it... He was bugging me, i.e. asking for my help when he should have just tried to figure it out on his own. Its not a big deal, i.e. it doesn't matter if I'm rude to him. He should know better, i.e. he should be able to read my mind. You get the picture.
Times like these its hard to be a follower of Jesus. If I wasn't a follower I would just shrug it off and think he'll get over it. But Jesus said, "Love your neighbor as you would yourself." Jesus wants me to treat the Hubbo the way I want someone to treat me, ie: care about him and his feelings. This means leaving my favorite TV show, humbling myself and admitting I'm wrong, asking for forgiveness, and THEN doing my best not to do it again.
So I went in the room and said I was sorry. Not because I felt like doing it. I said I was sorry because I knew it was the right thing to do. Sometimes I have to do the right thing even when I don't feel like it. Sometimes I feel better afterwards, sometimes I don't. I wish I could say askig for forgivness wasn't a problem for me, but the truth is I'm still struggling with it.
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Me, too! My parents forced me to apologize when I was a kid and I would stew in my room for a week because I hated being forced to apologize. The funny thing is I never made our typical son apologize and he will think of it himself after he calms down . . .
Very important post, Bonnie. It truly is so difficult to say those two little words, isn't it? We ALL get cranky, we ALL lash out once in awhile, and we've ALL done something that may not feel right later on.
For me, apologizing isn't as difficult for me as forgiving. I sometimes hold on to things and/or obsess. I've often had to ask God to forgive FOR me because I just can't do it myself. Crazy, I know. LOL!
But I acknowledge it, I'm working on it and that's important. =)
Thanks for this post, Bonnie.
Chynna
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